Cycle Of Love and Tears

I thought it was love
It was just bad luck
And I came to the conclusion
My love life really sucks
I’m not sure of my problem
It's got to be me
Maybe I’m too afraid
To face reality

I thought it was love
Just my hormones kicking'
I look back at yesterday
Oh what was I thinking

My fingers no longer count
The mistakes I have made
Tears labeled why
Seemed to end my day

And a handsome boy
Enters the room
His caring smile
ends my gloom
I get some affection
no longer am I broken hearted
it seems the cycle was just restarted..

I will be again in love
Heart break is still on it way

Hardest Thing To Say Is "Goodbye"

Today I learned a lesson
That will always be true
Saying goodbye to someone
Is the hardest thing to do

I’ve never felt a loss
Until I said goodbye
I thought I was strong
and I broke down and cried

Never will I forget
The times we had
Though the reflections are happy
It makes me rather sad

The most brutal of men
Cries at the past
I only wish
The good times would last

So I humor myself
I’d smile if I could
Why can't things work out?
Because life isn't supposed to be that good

Fantasy Vacation With Him

You're back in my arms
I’ve missed you so
Hold on tighter
Don't let the moment go

I’ve missed your lips
Pressed tightly against mine
I feel like the clouds have moved
And I can feel the sunshine

I dreamed of a fantasy vacation
Where we were all alone
But reality set in
And you turned to stone...

Will I Ever Love Again???

Will I ever love again
A question on my mind
Will I ever love another
Like you in this life

If it was meant to be it'll happen
This is what I am told
But I fear I won't find another
And will die alone

Will I ever love again
I really miss you now
Will I ever love again
Thinking about it just brings me down

I wake up at night
With tears in my eyes
My heart starts throbbing
And I begin to cry

Well it's better to have loved
and I still have my memories
They'll always make me happy
And set my heart at ease

My Time with Him..

It was love at first sight
and it all moved so fast
you were my boyfriend
before some time passed

We had the best relationship
anyone could ever hope for
we shared a love
I had never felt before

It all started so fast
the end was sudden too
and my only regret is that
I couldn't make it up to you

Through our years
we shared amazing times
went amazing places
I was yours, you were mine

You inspired me and
we grew up together
over time I thought
it might last forever

But towards the end
I grew complacent
you stopped being affectionate
our communication grew distant

That’s when it all fell apart
and all I’m left with
is this broken heart
(and your shit in my garage)

now i know (there's no hope)

you don't even know the pain i feel
when i start to question what is real
i know you're the cause
my lust for you gnaws
its way, through my brain
and i'm here, alone standing
by myself, with tears of understanding
rolling down my cheeks

now i know my bended
heart won't be mended
by your love....
no longer will i cry
or ask for help from up above
i don't blame thee
i blame myself for my insecurities

this time i'm really confused
about what i should do
i have this fear of never being satisfied
i can't find stable happiness,
i've tried and tried
this isn't easy,
i'm the butt of my own joke
i want some affection, this is all i hope

now i know my bended
heart won't be mended
by your love....
no longer will i cry
or ask for help from up above
and i'll live my life until i die
wondering if i'll ever be satisfied
it's not easy being the butt of your own joke
i want some affection, this is all i hope

I Miss You !!!

Time goes by a lot slower when you miss the one you love.
When I see your smile, and I know it’s not for me, that’s when I’ll miss you.
A hug for you means I need you. A kiss for you means I love you. A call for you means I’m missing you.
I miss your love I miss your touch, But I’m feeling you everyday.
It’s true we don’t know what we’ve got until its gone, but we don’t know what we’ve been missing until it arrives.
Love is missing someone whenever you’re apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you’re close in heart.
You may be out of my sight… but never out of my mind… I Miss You!
Although we’ve come to the end of the road, still I can’t let you go, it’s unnatural, you belong to me, I belong to you .
When I miss you, sometimes I listen to music or look at pictures of you, not to remind me of you but to make me feel as if I’m with you. It makes me forget the distance and capture you.