No Long Have A Reason To Live.

Life isn’t always what you want it to be. It has its ups and it has its downs; but you’ll always come through scratched and scarred, but know that the experience is just going to make you stronger. As a wise person once said, “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.” So no matter how many times someone pushes you down in life, stand right back up, and keep moving towards who you want to be and what you want to do. No matter who you are or where you’re from, always remember you can make it through whatever anyone throws at you if you just try hard enough.

I am a slow dying flower, in the frost-killing hour, sweet turning sour and untouchable.

We only accept the love we think we deserve.

This world is a cruel and ugly place to live in, but once in a while, we’re reminded of how beautiful it can be.

The worst feeling is knowing that you aren’t needed.
That you are alone in this world, and that you no long have a reason to live.

My Love.. My Distraction - Part 2

So I don't know
What I want
Coz I can't read
How you feel
Wouldn't it be sad
If you're going through
The same fucking ordeal

I’m patient but
I can't wait forever
For you to decide
On what you're going to do
I just guess you don't
Know what I’m emotionally
Going through

You're crying for attention
It's so obvious
With those you keep around,
But is there anything I can say
Is there anything I can do
I’m so afraid of fucking up
That I can't tell you
How I feel ...

My Love.. My Distraction - Part 1

Why do I build up feelings
That I’m not sure exist
I shouldn't insist
I’ve made up my vacillate mind

I don't understand
How you can be so indecisively cruel
I question if you care
For my well being, or if this
Is just an illusion to
Fill temporary satisfaction

It's all a distraction
To the rest of my life --
My life revolves around
My all-too-caring heart

I don't understand
How you can be so indecisively cruel
But why should I expect
You to make up your mind
When I can't make up mine..

Cycle Of Love and Tears

I thought it was love
It was just bad luck
And I came to the conclusion
My love life really sucks
I’m not sure of my problem
It's got to be me
Maybe I’m too afraid
To face reality

I thought it was love
Just my hormones kicking'
I look back at yesterday
Oh what was I thinking

My fingers no longer count
The mistakes I have made
Tears labeled why
Seemed to end my day

And a handsome boy
Enters the room
His caring smile
ends my gloom
I get some affection
no longer am I broken hearted
it seems the cycle was just restarted..

I will be again in love
Heart break is still on it way

Hardest Thing To Say Is "Goodbye"

Today I learned a lesson
That will always be true
Saying goodbye to someone
Is the hardest thing to do

I’ve never felt a loss
Until I said goodbye
I thought I was strong
and I broke down and cried

Never will I forget
The times we had
Though the reflections are happy
It makes me rather sad

The most brutal of men
Cries at the past
I only wish
The good times would last

So I humor myself
I’d smile if I could
Why can't things work out?
Because life isn't supposed to be that good

Fantasy Vacation With Him

You're back in my arms
I’ve missed you so
Hold on tighter
Don't let the moment go

I’ve missed your lips
Pressed tightly against mine
I feel like the clouds have moved
And I can feel the sunshine

I dreamed of a fantasy vacation
Where we were all alone
But reality set in
And you turned to stone...

Will I Ever Love Again???

Will I ever love again
A question on my mind
Will I ever love another
Like you in this life

If it was meant to be it'll happen
This is what I am told
But I fear I won't find another
And will die alone

Will I ever love again
I really miss you now
Will I ever love again
Thinking about it just brings me down

I wake up at night
With tears in my eyes
My heart starts throbbing
And I begin to cry

Well it's better to have loved
and I still have my memories
They'll always make me happy
And set my heart at ease