FATE

I often ponder on the fact that what Fate exactly is? They say it is a fixed decree by which the order of things is prescribed or the immutable law of the universe, others say it is the force by which all existence is determined and conditioned.  Everyone states the same statement in its various versions. Visualize a guy who passed away due to cancer because of his smoking habits right before his marriage or a footballer who lost his legs in an accident after a football final while driving back home. I wonder if this Fate somehow could have been actually different for both of them. Had the guy paid more attention to the words of warning written on the cigarette pack or would have cared a bit more about his family then the things might have been different. Same goes for the footballer, maybe he was drunk or not showing the necessary concentration on the road that resulted in such a disastrous life-changing situation. Now I ask, can this Fate actually be changed?

I think about this and am forced to link Fate with the Karma-Dharma theory. I recall a famous proverb which we used to jot down in our cursive writing books – “As you sow, so shall you reap”. I guess what happened above in both the cases was indeed a result of the actions of near past. Whom would everyone prefer, a bad man with good habits or a good man with bad habits (Don’t confuse habits with deeds). I am quite sure that I am gonna go with the latter. A good man would never have intentions of hurting someone even a bit and his actions would always result in a greater good but his habits being considered as bad from a specific point of view might result in his wrong Fate. On the contrary a Bad man can do all the shit on this human race and still good habits might save his ass at the end of the day. If not that, a Tsunami will take over a good man and a bad man together without any discrimination of their actions. I marvel on the fact that in spite of doing all the good things to this globe a person can end up anywhere, so is this good karma indeed important?

I believe it is. There is always a fault related to all the blows and tragedies of life. Maybe the driver should have been more attentive and the smoker should have given more respect to the warnings. Our little actions or slight heed to the warnings can change the entire fate on an individual. To end I would just like to share a poem which I saw somewhere  -

I Have Seen Castles Made Out Of Sand,

Met People Who BelieveFate Is Engraved On The Palm Of Their Hands,

I Have Seen People Change Their Faith,

Exprienced Love Change Into Hate,

I Have Seen People Grow Younger With Age,

n A Bird Who Would Not Fly Out Of An Open Cage,

I Have Seen Love Sold For Money,

People Who Are Devastated Inside But Outside They Are Funny,

I Have Seen The Unicorn Fall In Love With The Toad,

People Who Owned Half The City Have Now Hit The Road,

I Have Learned To Expect The Unexpcted,

Perfection Doesn't Exist,We Are All Defectd,

Everyone Cries,Some Just Hide Their Tears,

They Say Coal Turns Into Valueble Diamond..

Someone May Believe You Are One In Million,

For Others You Are Just Another Nobody In The Billion...

Cherish All Your Moments Happy or Sad,

Feel... See More Blessed With What You Are... !

PROSTITUTION

*Prostitution*

“I won’t pay a penny more than 200 rupees.” Sahib said. I looked at him seductively biting my lips. “Make it 300 sahib, I promise you won’t regret it.” “I’ll pay you 250 and that is final. You have to make my night worth or I won’t pay you a single penny.” I had no customers that day and I had no option but to agree. “Okay Sahib, as you say. Give me the money and I’ll make preparations for everything.”

I am a prostitute by profession and a proud one at that. My name is Priti but people here call me ‘Chikni’. It’s like a pen name you writer guys have. My parents wanted me to become a doctor. But I have always wanted to be a lawyer. Things became bad when my dad lost his job as a security guard when the mall closed down. I had to discontinue my studies because I was expected to take care of the house, my parents, and my younger brother.
I remember how my mother forced me to sleep with my neighbour for a hundred rupees. I was fifteen then. I felt dirty and used. But I had a hearty meal after days. I couldn’t sleep that day. I kept wondering what is worse: people’s self-imposed morals or sacrificing yourself on the altar of your self-imposed morals. Hell, I don’t think I did anything wrong. I would rather be called a prostitute and be looked down upon than go hungry for days because somebody else thinks it is morally wrong.

“Here’s your money.” Sahib threw the notes on my face. “Thank You Sahib.” I bowed. I couldn’t stop thinking what I’d do of those notes. I had to buy rice and vegetables. I was going to buy a few onions too. It’d been ages since I had onions. I wanted to buy an ice cream too, strawberry flavour. So much to do, so little to spend, I smiled.

In life, I’ve realised, morals are like neighbours. We are all fine with them, until they threaten to invade our life to totally ruin it. I could see the glee on my brother’s face when I gave him the ice cream. Your morals don’t make him happy, my lack of it, does.

Yep I Am In Love, Despite......

His name means Shine
and my name means the same too..

He is something handsome
every girl would have her eyes on..

And not only have her eyes on
but would also want him in life
HE IS DESIRABLE!!!!

Yep I Love Him, Despite....
of knowing
he worships works and his work is his priority
I stand no where in his priority list....

Yep I Love Him, Despite....
of MajoRity of Sorries from either side
but love You from neither side.....

Yep I Love Him, Despite....
of knowing he is of different cast creed and religion
but our love is from the same caste creed and religion...

Yep I Love Him, Despite....
of knowing that his only interest is boobs,tits,ass and pussy
but my only interest is "HE" and "His Love".

He says he loves me so he wanna see me
I say i love him coz i see him...

Yep I Love Him, Despite....
knowing that he wont accept me as i m
but i have already accepted him as he is...


Concluding.....
I seldom ask myself is this love?
and to its reply my selfless soul says. "yes baby this is love, selfless love, cause its without any demands and complaints"

and i laugh to myself..
Yep I Love Him, Despite....
knowing that i will now and forever have to fulfill all his demands and satisfy all his complaints..

Missing Piece Of My Heart

Do you remember your first special kiss?
That one sweet kiss melted your beautiful soul.
Do you long for that kiss to happen again?
Close your eyes, picture that moment in time..

I remember the moment before our lips met,
His eyes gazed to mine, our lips just an inch away..
he held  me on to his hands and said, "I'm yours forever.."
Kissing him softly in my room.. Suddenly..

Leaves are tapping down the window
he stopped kissing me and said, "It was just the leaves."
I said, "It's God blessing us from above."
"Can you feel the angels, they're watching us."

We were still gazing outside the window.. 
The sun starts to sink in the horizon..
I whispered, "I love you, You're my only one."
Tears run down his face.. And he held his arms around me..

I whispered, "Your eyes are the window to your heart..
"And your tears are a proof that you have one."
"God gave us two feet, two hands, two ears and two eyes.."
But only one heart.. he came closer to me and said.. 

"Because God knows that I will find the other piece in your heart"

Hand in Hand

As we sit in the snow white sand,
And the waves crash upon the shore,
I stare to the sky trying to understand,
Why the stars seem brighter then ever before.

Is it because the sky is so clear,
That the stars are shining bright?
Or could it be that love is near,
On this perfect summer night?

We laugh, we kiss, we talk,
Draw pictures in the sand.
Along the ocean we walk,
Just U and I, Hand in Hand.

Our night is almost finished,
As the moon is fading fast,
Another day will be diminished,
Put with the others in the past.

Everything seems to melt away,
Faster then the drop of a dime,
As night dissolves to day,
We lose more precious time.

Surely soon the sun will rise,
As this is Gods command,
I know she can see the twinkle in my eyes,
As we walk Hand in Hand.

MY WEDDING DREAM

I've seen you in my dreams before,
We walked along that sandy shore.
The moonlight lit your eyes so wide,
On that night, you became my bride.

Walking with you, I held your hand,
Your wedding dress dragged the sand.
Hiding behind your gorgeous veil,
I cherished your every detail.

Your hushed voice would tickle my ear,
Golden highlights flashed in your hair.
Kissing your lips your taste was sweet,
An eye candy, you were my treat.

The midnight tides rose from the sea,
Touched our toes and faded slowly.
Clouds started to float through the air,
The moon and stars would disappear.

A fog rolled in and you were gone,
I passed out and awoke to dawn.
Into the bright sky I would gleam,
I looked around, was it a dream?

My left hand wore a wedding ring,
But yet I hadn't seen a thing.
Then I heard the voice of you,
and realized my dream came true.

Loving You

Loving you
Was a dream come true.
I gave you my heart,
And hoped we would never part.

From the moment I met you,
I knew it was true.
And that your love for me,
Would never flee.

And as the days became weeks
And the weeks turned to months
My love for you began to grow
And even started to show

I always wore the color red,
Because I knew ahead;
That you would say,
You liked my display.

I wrote you love poems,
Hoping you would love them;
Like the way you loved me,
Wishing you not to flee.

You're the only one,
You're in everyone I see.
You're the one I trust, 
You're the one I want to touch.

When I close my eyes it's you I see,
And nothing can compare
For the way you care;
Not just for me, but others as well.